what should I wear to van's rehearsal dinner?

i love twitter. i like to twit all day with my friends. :o)

i didn't study much today. i finished AO and retook some practice passage tests. i did well this second time around.

i must take a practice exam soon. i have hardly any time now. the test is at the end of the month and i need to be more serious. After this weekend, i have to really start working extra, EXTRA hard. Take tests, go over answers, understand concepts, review concepts, IMPROVE = goals.

Goals...that is difficult.

I saw my mum's work place today. It is so nice. Everything that was outdoor at Clifton is outdoor AND indoor at Ravinia. So kool. I think we are going there tomorrow for a picnic. Ba will like that.

Me and Chong were supposed to have a party tonight. lol. Too bad he was working and I was slacking off. We could have been so productive together.

I think somebody stole some money from my wallet. It is really bothering me. I didn't spend my cash. Where did it go? There have been several thefts at the library lately and police swarm the area every week. Maybe my money was stolen when I left my bag unattended. "Good job jingy" as my mother would say. Good job.

Must. Sleep. Must. Prepare. For. Tomorrow.

Oh yeh. It is almost July 4th.

DAD = DOUCHEBAG

I knew my dad would leave all that dirt on the carpet and not clean it up before I got home. He did exactly that. Then my mother came home and it was the first thing she brought up to him, like I figured. They had an argument and called each other bad words as usual, AND THEN!...THEN my dad did what he ALWAYS DOES: he left. lol. He was just finding an excuse to NOT fix the shit he messed up. And once again, his excuse was, "my mother doesn't speak to him properly."

I admit, because im surrounded by douchebags, I am also becoming a douchebag. Picking out everyone's flaws and holding grudges. But what would happen to someone if they were surrounded by this all the time like I was? I think the same thing would happen. After a while, you start rolling with the punches and fuck everything including your tactfulness and your patience. You become...a douche too. Am I proud of it? Not at all. Could I possibly prevent a situation like this from occurring in the future? Probably not. My parents are set in their dumbass ways. It's really sad that I am already becoming set in my ways, because I should be able to rebound from these types of situations. In the morning when my dad and I had a screaming match about tracking dirt into the house and cleaning it up, I KNEW that he wouldn't have done anything different in the situation even if I had asked him nicely, politely (for a 3rd time) to clean up his mess. I asked him twice and the third time I had to ask and he said NO just totally put me over the edge.

Am I his mother? No. Am I supposed to clean up after him so that he can check his email? I don't think so. Should I not have screamed "ASSHOLE" as I walked out of the room? Okay, that I could have refrained from doing.

But oh my god, if you are an asshole, and no one ever calls you an asshole, you will never know that you are an asshole and you will keep on in your asshole ways! Like a friend told me yesterday, "your dad is like your kid." :/ that eff'ing sucks. Because if that is true, then I guess I kind totally went about everything the wrong way today. You can't call a kid an asshole and you should PUNISH him instead of screaming at him. Screaming, shouting, and name calling doesn't do anything. I still haven't learned that. My fault.

Moving out sounds so wonderful right now. Too bad my ass is poor.

does anybody hate their parents?












I think i hate mine.